Midwest Maiden

A 20something playing the game called life

Different Kind of Post July 18, 2009

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The “dom” I was talking to told me to write a story about visiting the grocery store while following his requirements, since I wasn’t actually going to do it. So, I did.  I figured I would post it so it doesn’t feel like as big of a waste of time as it really was.  I’m not good at erotic writing.  I’m such a practical person that I can’t let go of what it would *really* be like and just write about what would make it hot. 

 

Plus, to me the story is a whole lot of B.S.  Doing something like he asked does NOT turn me on.  It’s not one of those situations like when a sub says they don’t like pain and yet they get dripping wet when they think about it or it happens.  “Public” play is just not at all a kink for me, which I’ve found people often doubt or dismiss because it is such a common kink.  For instance, the second time I had sex it was in the back of a truck behind a deserted barn on a forgotten dirt road – pretty secluded.  I hated every minute of it.  I just laid there, praying for it to end because I was so damn nervous about getting caught.  There was *nothing* sexy about it for me (which pisses me off because I do think the guy is probably a good lay).  Alright, enough about that.  On with the story.

 

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Grateful that it’s not a warm day, I plant my bare ass on the leather seats of my car.  My hands shake as I grab the wheel and put the car into reverse.  Maybe if I just don’t think about what I’m going to do, I won’t be so nervous.  Just pretend I’m running a quick errand on my way to a wedding.  But the cool reminder of the leather seat on my naked ass is a constant reminder, forcing my current situation to the forefront of my mind.  I choose the grocery store closest to my house, regretting my decision on the way.  I could go instead to the one across town, thus delaying my humiliating walk through the endless isles of the grocery store.  At the last minute I decide to go with my original choice of the one nearby; it’s significantly less busy than any of the others in town. 

 

I get out of my car as quickly as possible, scared that someone will notice I am without panties.  As I reach down to lock my doors, I notice a wet spot on the seat where my pussy had been.   Despite my hands shaking, my pussy had been dripping.

 

Having just gone grocery shopping the day before, there really was little I needed to get so I opted for a basket instead of a cart.  Walking past the customer service counter, I avoided eye contact with the line of people returning their cans, even though deep down I knew they probably hadn’t even noticed I walked through the door.

 

On my way through the produce, I get my first “knowing” glance.  I doubt the old bitty knew what I was really up to, but it was quite obvious she disproved of what I was wearing.  I felt my face literally turn red as I picked up my pace, only to slow right back down as I have little experience walking in heels. 

 

Down the first isle where I planned to get mushrooms for some spaghetti sauce, there’s a young man stocking shelves.  I hesitate for a moment, thinking maybe I can just skip this isle.  But He said I had to go down every isle.  I hold my head high, while keeping my eyes downcast, trying to act oblivious to the stock boys presence.  As I reach up to get the mushrooms, he glances my way.   I notice out of the corner of my eye that as he quickly looks away, a smirk crosses his face.  Again my face turns read as I continue down the aisle, fighting back tears of embarrassment.  He must assume that I’m an easy little slut.  Maybe he’s right.

 

Filled with gratitude towards the powers that be or the universe or whatever, I gather a few items uneventfully (meaning without running into another person) from the next few aisles.  My luck ran out as I turned into the cereal aisle, bumping into a woman’s cart, forcing me to drop my purse.  Instinct tells me to bend down to pick it up, especially considering the panties and bullet inside.  But as I’m bending down, I remember my naked ass under my skirt.  I pause only slightly, knowing I have to pick up my purse.  As I stand back up and quickly apologize to the woman I ran into, I can feel my pussy lips rub together, thoroughly wet.

 

I quickly make my way up and down the personal hygiene and home care aisles, making my way to the frozen food section.  The whole way through the store I had been dreading those two aisles.  Everyone knows what happens to a girl’s tits when they get cold.  Knowing actually opening one of the freezer doors would make things worse, I went ahead and picked out a frozen pizza anyway.  Is it possible that in some subconscious way I was sabotaging myself?  Nipping out would just make me more self-conscious which was why this whole experience was so painful for me. 

 

As I walked towards the check-out, I quickly grabbed some batteries.  I tried to be discreet about it but still felt as if every eye in the place was on me and knew that in a few minutes, I would place those batteries in my vibrator, making myself cum and tasting my juices on some country road. 

 

Walking through the check-out I swore I caught a whiff of my pussy, grateful there weren’t actually juices dripping down my legs.  While usually friendly with the checkout people, I again avoided eye contact and kept conversation as short as possible.  

 

Once to my car, I was again wracked with anxiety.  What if a breeze came up while I was putting my bags in my car?  What if the old guy behind me got a peek of my ass as I climbed back into my car?  I quickly unlock my car and throw the bags into the front seat with me, again placing my bare ass on my leather seats.

 

Absence, Punishment & Fantasies….Oh My! March 22, 2008

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I haven’t seen Hunter in 6 days and it’s looking like it will be another 4-8ish  days before I see him again.  I’ve gotten to talk to him pretty much every day though so I shouldn’t complain too much! But, right now he’s at his Grandma’s which I guess is totally in the boonies and he doesn’t get cell reception.  So, no talking at all today or tomorrow. 

 I’m really excited about the direction in which Hunter and I are moving. We seem to really be on the same page about one another, how things are currently, and what we want to happen.   Things are growing deeper. I look back at some of the first posts I made about him and I  and they’re almost solely about the physical aspects.  But, as time has passeed they have become more about the relationship as a whole, not just the physical part. I’m looking forward to moving even more in that direction.

This past week while Hunter was gone, he went out on the town almost every night.  Each night when he got in he was to text me – just so I’d know.  He forgot one night.  His punishment was to write “I will text my owner when she tells me to,” or something along those lines, 25 times – to be done all at once.  He HATED it.  I think writing sentences is going to be my favored punishment.  But, I need to also remember to change it up once in a while.  Really, he is such a good boy though.  He has yet to intentionally disobey me.  He does get pretty down on himself when he slips up and forgets something I asked of him.  I hope punishment is a cleansing experience for him.

Almost as soon as Hunter and I started dating, getting myself off became a lot more difficult.  I would picture things we’d done and things I wanted to do to him.  The thoughts would arouse me but it was taking me FOREVER (okay, more like 10-20 minutes) to cum, which was really odd because I usually cum within a few minutes.  I just didn’t get it – when I actually did the things to him that I was imagining, it got me wet and horny as hell, but it just didn’t do a whole lot when I masturbated about it after the fact.  I felt really, really guilty about it.

But, the other day Kaya did a post about fantasies and it made things a whole lot more clear to me.  Most of my fantasies since I met Hunter have been about me and two unknown males – one I am submissive to and the other is my sub.  The dom and I do humiliating and degrading things to my sub – more than I could ever see myself doing in real life.  I would also not do another guy in front of Hunter due to concerns about the emotional effects it could have.  I think there’s something else to it too.  Once something happens it becomes a reality, not a fantasy.  No matter how hot the experience was it still won’t measure up to the intensity/allure of something that hasn’t happened, at least for me when I’m masturbating. Like I said though, thinking about things Hunter and I have done does get my mighty horny, but it takes a different kind of fantasy to get me all the way to an orgasm.  I wish it wasn’t like that, but that’s just the way it is.

 

A little note… February 19, 2008

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A little e-mail I sent Paden yesterday…

While I was using my vibrator to get myself off this afternoon I was thinking of you (of course!!)  Do you have a hairy ass?  Well, in this particular fantasy you did, kk?  I imagined putting a few strips of duct tape on your ass, then make you sit for a while to watch a movie with me.  During the movie I’m clothed and you are, of course, naked.  At various points I begin rubbing your cock and your balls but order you not to make a sound and when you do, I tweak one of your nipples just a tad.  After the movie we go back to the bedroom where I instruct you to lay face-down on the bed.  I then take out various items to whip your ass with (you know, I need to make sure that duct tape is as stuck to your as as possible) – perhaps a stick, a paddle, a whip and/or a riding crop.  Then, when my sadistic streak has almost been met, I’ll stop whipping your ass and yank off the duct tape – I couldn’t decide if I wanted to do it quickly or slowly.  I think I’d need to do it several times in order to figure out which way I liked best.  ;)