Chessa got her groove back February 28, 2008

Ever since that fateful  night when I was unable to cum on the phone with Paden, I have had little sex drive.  I don’t know what it did to me.  It wasn’t that I wasn’t horny – I was often horny, especially when I talked to Paden after that night.  But, I just didn’t have the urge to take care of the horniness.

That’s changing.  Since ya’ll don’t need to know about every time I do it, I won’t give you a run-down.  But yesterday and today I seem to be making up for the dry spell I had this past week.  It’s pretty sweet!  But, it would be so much more fun to be this horny AND have a boy to play with. 

I messed around on cam a little with a guy a few days ago.  I’m just not a fan of the cam thing.  Plus, there’s just so much pressure to keep things moving when it’s on cam.  And, if you don’t know the person extremely well, you don’t know what they would or would not be ready for.  I made the guy take a few pictures for me while I was out and about.  I must admit, it was mighty nice to come home to have such wonderful eye candy in my inbox!  When I returned I had him apply nipple clamps and start whacking it.  He made such wonderful sounds when he had to take the clamps off.  Mmmmm, few other things get me going like the noises men make when they’re in pain.  I then had him cum on the floor and lick it up.  He wasn’t such a fan of that, but he did it.  I love when I tell a guy to cum on the floor and lick it up.  It happens the same with each one – they pause and say, “But, it’s carpet.”  I just laugh and say, “Yeah, so?”  It’s priceless.

I haven’t talked to Paden in a few days.  He hasn’t checked in or anything.  I’m a little worried about what’s happening on his end – I can’t imagine him purposely not contacting me.  But, since he is absent from my life, I have started talking to other subs again.  I’m not going to wait around for something that isn’t even close to a sure-thing.  Paden, of course, would be my first pick right now but until he makes me a priority and sorts out things on his end, I’m going to get my kicks where I can get ‘em!

Risky Bussiness February 17, 2008

Before he “met” me, the only place Paden would cum was in the shower or when no one was home.  He was too self-conscious to do it in his room when his roommates were home.  That all changed last night, well at least temporarily. 

He was sitting in his living room with his cam on and he brought up bringing his cock out or something along those lines.  I (of course!) was not opposed to that so he whipped it out.  Several times he got himself to the brink of cumming then would back off.  I wasn’t able to actually see him cum the other night and I wanted to watch his face while he did it.  So, I told him to cum.  He promptly did, all over his chest.  He has very interesting facial expressions when he’s jacking off and orgasming – his face squishes up and it actually looks like he’s in pain.  I’ve never seen anything quite like it before.  I told him to lick up some of the cum.  I asked him how it tasted and he said, “chalky and sick.”  I too hate the taste of cum and knowing that he also does is going to make it so much sweeter when I make him eat it – which I plan on doing quite frequently. 

But right then, the screen went blank and he imms me saying, “Uh oh, Busted!”  His roommates came out into the living room!  MY face even turned beet red!  I felt absolutely horrible!  Here it was something he had already been self-conscious about and I made it worse!  As a domme it’s my job to “protect” him and such and I felt like I totally failed him.  But, he wasn’t phased all that much.  He assured me everything was okay, that he was able to cover it up pretty well.  Actually, it was rather erotic to him I think. 

The first time I made him cum, after hours and hours of teasing, after pre-cum without having touched his cock, it still took him 19 strokes to make himself cum.  Last night it took him longer than I would have preferred to make himself cum.  In know in relation to the norm he came quickly, but I would prefer quicker.  So, I am looking into cumming on command.  I plan on researching it and working with him on it.  What I’ve found on-line thus far seems positive, that cumming on command can be done.  I’m also looking up Femdom non-fictionish books.  I think it would be fun to read a book or two “with” Paden – I’m sure we would both learn a lot about ourselves, our roles, and each other.