While I identify as bisexual, I rarely give thought to pursuing a relationship with a female. On Fetlife they have the term “hetero-flexible.” Maybe that’s more of what I am. I don’t really check girls out or anything like that. But there’s this one girl. I met her in the spring when my preschool class went to a local horse farm for a field trip. She’s the daughter of the farm owners and is all about the family business. There’s nothing about her that blatantly sticks out as an attraction – like how some people have killer smiles or contagious personalities or are “hot”. But damn, I want her. I can’t describe the attraction, where it comes from or why exactly it’s there. It’s strong though. It’s somewhat sexual, but definitely not a kinky attraction. I don’t have a gay-dar at all (I was about the only person who didn’t realize my sister was gay before she officially came out) so there’s no reason to think she even swings that way.
We went to the horse farm with school kids today. She was there of course and there was more conversation than in the spring. I may see her again next year when my preschool class goes again. Obviously nothing will ever come of it. But I doubt I will ever forget her. I don’t recall ever having such a distinct and strong immediate attraction to someone.
